holesomelanguage | [limelight] Continuations

... I ain't gonna lie ta ya, I don't know fer sure. The more o' them visions I watch, the more I can feel my own thoughts shiftin' 'round in my head. Priorities changin' an' I've been gettin' more an' more desperate ta work out if I even gotta do anythin' or not.

But JJ, you in some other place an' you here are two different people. Even I'm smart 'nuff ta work that out. I ain't lookin' ta change what we got into what we had- whatever it was.

[ Huffs out a breath, slow. ]

I like what we got.

I like ya, JJ.

[Relaxes marginally against the sheets at that]

Good. I like you too.

[ Kissing him on the cheek, just under his eye before rolling onto his side again when JJ doesn't look like he's about to flee the bed. ]

... Is it that bad? That ya think I'd turn on ya that easily?

You threatened to put a bullet in my head if I didn't tell you where some guy was, so.

... Oh.

I think I did that a lot actually.

....I'm not actually sure that's better.

[Reaches out for a pillow, dragging it closer to bury his face in it with a groan]

[ Shifting to rest his head on JJ. ]

I mean, I probably didn't hate ya specifically? I drew a gun on a fella after sneakin' on board his ship. Called it my way of sayin' hello.

... Ain't tryin' ta say it weren't wrong ta, jus'... reckon he got a reason fer bein' the way he was by that point.

[Tilts his head just enough for one eye to be visible]

My vision guy doesn't exactly seem to have a great track record for being liked. Can you blame me for being a little nervous?

He ain't got yer stellar charm?

... He ain't ya an' ya ain't 'im. Jus' like I ain't the guy I used ta be, no matter how much my body's changin' ta become his.

[Turns more so both eyes are visible now, reaching down to card a hand through Nick's hair]

I don't feel charming most days.... And good. I think I just needed to hear that.

Ya ever need me ta repeat it, I happily will.

[ Hums softly at the touch. ]

Reckon I can feel ya a lil on that though... I ain't got it nearly as bad as ya, but the industry ain't real kind ta people who don't give it a perfect face.

[Makes a small noise of agreement]

I've been focused on giving perfect face for half my life now.

That many years wears down a fella. Yer left wonderin' if it's still a mask or jus' you now.

[ Tracing his human fingers over JJ's back in lazy shapes for a moment, then. ]

... My language is a helluva lot more colorful when I ain't watchin' my words, y'know. Reckon I could make a sailor cry if I gave it a good try.

I'd pay to see that. Not directed at me, of course.

I've let slip a couple o' times 'fore. That's why I've had ta move my work station ta different salons.

... Ya might see more o' it 'round the boat at least.